Tears

Today, I cried a little. It was only the third time I have cried since Mike deployed and I think that is really good. I keep comparing this to the first time he was deployed and it is markedly better. On the first go round, I literally cried everyday for the first two month...literally people. I woke up and was feeling pretty good today, I had my coffee and felt motivated. I took a shower and dried my hair. It was only when I started listening to the words of the maudlin music I had playing, that I started feeling a little lonely. After sitting for a few minutes, letting myself actually feel the pain of being alone for four months did I call my sister. I was crying when she picked up the phone, knowing exactly what was wrong (in the amazing way sisters do, sometimes) she asked (knowing full well) how I was doing. I asked her just to start talking, tell me about the restaurant you are eating at, tell me what you ordered for lunch and tell me about the book you are going to check out of the library tomorrow. Soon we were talking about movies and I was laughing a little. The rest of the day was nice, I played with Jezebel and actually made myself dinner instead of just snacking on rice cakes and string cheese. Anyways, I was terrified of this second deployment, but I'm doing much better than I expected. It is a constant lesson that the Lord will not give us more than we can handle, but it's a good lesson to re-learn.

The OG

So tonight was Olive Garden night, it was the first time I have been there since working there almost two years ago. It was a little strange and I was ducking the whole time trying not to get recognized. Anyways, we had a few glasses of wine, delicious food and good company. The rest of the night we sat at home, ate our black tie mousse cake, enjoyed our fire and watched T.V. Nice quiet Saturday night!

Pizza

We decided this is going to be our week of eating out. Mike is deploying again in a few days (not allowed to say exactly when), but he feels it is time to stock up on the food he won't be able to have the next few months. Last night was Poblano Grill, a decent Mexican food restaurant close to our house. I had the spinach enchiladas, which was actually pretty good, I love spinach so I thought it was a perfect match. Tonight was Domino's Pizza, we ordered two medium pizzas and ate all but one slice. This does not bode well for my new commitment (not resolution) to get into fantastic shape, oh well it's only a few days. So I ate almost an entire pizza by myself and I feel...just so beyond gross. I will definitely be hitting the treadmill tomorrow.